A Season Change

There’s an opportune time to do things, a right time for everything on the earth…
Ecclesiastes 3:1 (MSG)

This scripture brings me such peace about the transition I am in from my current season into my new season. I’ve still got several months before this current season is completely over, but I have begun the transition and it’s kind of exciting.

In the past, when I felt a certain season was over, I spent a year dragging my feet out of fear. Fear of a lot of things. And I’ll be the first to admit that when I finally let go of that season, even though it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of me, I struggled with knowing my purpose. There were several other things that coincided with that change, causing that struggle to intensify, but the thing I let go of was one of two roots causes for the struggle.

This time, I am embracing this season change without hesitation. It’s a little easier this time around because it’s a smaller change, but there are still uncertainties surrounding it that could cause me to panic. However, I’m choosing to not give in to the panic and anxiety, because I know that my God has never failed to meet my needs.

It’s also easier because I can almost see what God is doing and where He is working. It’s like there’s this tiny, little ball of excitement inside of me that is very lightly bouncing up and down out of anticipation. Probably because I know that whatever God is doing is going to be a dream come true. And I know there’s a possibility that it won’t look the way I expect or it will take longer than I want, but just being able to picture where things could be going gives me so much hope.

And because of that hope, I have zero guilt about leaving this current season. That was another thing I struggled with before. I felt bad to back away from two ministries, because I thought I was letting people down. I know now that was a dysfunctional mindset, but in the moment it was hard to deal with.

Another thing… this current season change is making me so much more appreciative of the previous one. The last one was bigger and more difficult, but it also led to things I never thought possible. Things that I have come to love. Things that have awakened so many parts of my heart that I’m learning another side of myself. So, even though this season change is smaller, my previous experience is helping me jump into this transition like I have nothing to fear. Because… well… I don’t.